She Has Already Won the Battle

I learnt about a month ago that one of my former co-workers and friends has cancer. 

Age 38. Cancer. I still can't believe it. 

She has a husband and a 5 year old son. She came to my house with her family just a few months ago in seemingly good health. Wow! How life can change in the blink of an eye. I visited her today and she is surprisingly in good spirits and doing better than me! And some of us complain about our lives!

She thanks God every day that she can wake up and look at the sky and His glorious creation through her window. I was hesitant to step foot back into a hospital after the ordeal with my dad just months before, but I had a meeting today closeby and sucked it up and went. I did not regret the decision. 

It was difficult seeing her like this as she lost a lot of weight. When I first opened her door, I did not even recognize her...sadly. It was heartbreaking and I almost became emotional (so out of character for me). But when I heard her speak, I saw such courage and strength that was truly admirable. 

Imagine she wants to go on radio and talk about her illness and even write a book. Her hope fuels my strength and drive to make the most of my life, even on my off days. She said to me, "when you feel like that Carolyn, just think about me." 

Food for Thought:

LIVE life everyone. It's unpredictable and sometimes harsh, but as I told my friend today and a month ago, it's all about conditioning the mind. It's your greatest asset. Positive thinking and faith can restore hope and healing in even the dimmest situations. 

Every day can't be marshmallows and buttercups. You're gonna have your off days, this is life, but you must dig deep to find the strength to show up, put on your happy face (and your best dress or trousers!) and life your best life. You only have one crack at it.

As I prayed with her and read from my new book, I realized that she has already won this battle. 

I wish I had half her strength.

Until next time,

Peace & Love

How I Squeezed 6 Years into 12 Chapters in 2 Days

I was telling one of my Tobago friends tonight that I think I lost my blogging mojo lol. She said to me: "It's normal Carolyn...like me and reading...sometimes I lose interest then when I pick up the book again, it's the most exciting thing...maybe you just need a little break." 

Okay? But I can't afford to take a little break, my book is about to be launched! Of course I didn't say this to her, but she understands me so well I didn't have to. So here I am, trying to save face. I recently submitted a writing proposal to a big league international magazine and I think I owe it to myself to blog more frequently, if I want to be considered committed to my craft (just in case they check my blog to see what I'm up to!). 

I look at my other author/blogger friends and some of them are churning out daily blogs for heaven's sake! On another note, I've been receiving more comments on my recent blog posts over the past couple months, so I guess this is a good sign. Thank you! (keep the comments coming:) 

When all is said and done, I must stay true to myself and the content in my books and articles. I reminded myself that no one's journey is the same and we all have different capabilities, goals, thresholds for making our circumstances work for us and balancing all the different things in our lives. 

I've been emotionally and physically drained over the past few months, so much so that I haven't been well for a bit. So I guess I've reached my threshold and I must listen to my body. So daily blogging is something to be grasped when both hands are free, to really do it justice and keep the momentum going. Every other day, yes maybe this is more likely.

In my last blog, I spoke about the delight of receiving the sample/proof copy of my new book- How To Find Yourself and Claim What's Yours. Over the past couple days I managed to read all 12 chapters and it was delightful to recall those 6 years of my life! It was surreal, like a dream that happened soo long ago! Yesterday, a friend of mine asked me if I took notes! "How did you remember what took place all those years ago," she asked! lol. I never thought of it that way before. I guess it's really a talent. 

It was just mind blowing to turn the pages of the actual book, smell that new book smell, marvel at the artwork (designed by Ms. Patricia Grannum:) and bask in that feeling of accomplishment to see your hard work in tangible form. It matches no other feeling in the world.

That's me with the book, to your right. My friend Roxanne refused to be photographed so instead

photo credit - C. K. Correia
All rights reserved 2015.

, she insisted on taking a photo of me! Do you see the delight on my face? ha! I can't wait for you to read. 

A few last minute arrangements to be made, then it will all unfold. It will be made available to pre-order on Amazon and I will have some copies shipped for sale locally. I may have to change the date of my book launch, but I am trying not to get anxious with the logistics. I'm hoping it will all fall into place this week like always.

Thanks for the support. Stay tuned to this space for how to order your copy!

Peace & Love

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You've Got Mail!

Just a quick note to report that I've received the sample copy of my new book! :-)

Words can't express how happy I was to tear open that box yesterday. I should have blogged last night, but I was soo tired after being out all day and then having a mini celebration with my friend Roxanne (will post pics later). 

So after a full day of reading the sample to ensure there are no last minute changes, once again I'm pooped! Sheer exhaustion...I fell asleep on my sofa bed in between reading my book and watching two documentaries on Malcolm X and Hitler on CNN! I had to fight the urge to continue sleeping.

I've reached Chapter 10 and I'm super excited. 

Tomorrow I have a meeting to discuss my workshop with my guest speaker.

The excitement continues.

Some last minute changes to my book launch, but I'm praying everything works out.

I'd just leave you with a couple shots of my new book (I like the sound of that) that I took in the car yesterday on the way to an appointment.

Cheers!

Peace & Love

 

June is Bustin' Out All Over!

It's June! Hooray...Another month filled with possibilities.

I remember we were taught this song in school but due to intellectual property concerns, I cannot share the video on my blog, but you can youtube it if you like! Such a quirky little happy  song.

I've been delinquent with my blogging efforts and I've been postponing it for several reasons. Reason #1 because of time and sheer exhaustion (publishing a book is NOT easy!). 

The second reason is because I thought I was overkilling my readers with the frequency of my posts and they either delete or yelp each time they see my name in their inbox or worse read half way through, then get distracted! Imagine my joy when people email me and tell me they love reading my posts! I even got a text yesterday asking why they haven't been seeing my inspirational blogs! This is a little slice of happiness right there :-)

And thirdly MY BOOK HAS BEEN PUBLISHED! Whoopi:) I can do cartwheels :))) Yes as of last week Wednesday 27th May, 2015, I am now the proud author of 2 books. I feel like a chapter has ended and a new one is only beginning and I can't wait to see where it leads. I looked at the digital copy, turned the virtual pages and almost cried tears of delight! At present I am awaiting my sample/proof copy before I order copies and have them shipped.

So here I am to spread my joy and tell you more about my book. June is also the month of my book launch which I am in the midst of planning and actually started since February, but somehow got pushed under everything else going on :( 

Speakers have been arranged, guest list done and I am in the process of sorting out other details including PR stuff as well as preparing for a couple speaking engagements. This month and the ones that follow is also a time to catch up with friends who I haven't seen in a while and I am looking forward to that very much as they have really proven to be solid friendships that have stood the test of time.

photo credit - C.K. Correia 2013.
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One of the things I talk about in my book is family and friendships, especially my parents. In Chapter 4: Do You Know How Lucky You Are, I speak about all the things my parents did for me especially when I was employed in Trinidad and when I was a student at university. 

As I  read those words I wrote all those years ago when my dad was alive, I never could have imagined that he would not be here with me today to celebrate this moment and other moments to come. He went over and beyond the call of duty as a parent and so did my mum. I would never forget it for as long as I live. I was even teased at work for how good I had it. The epilogue is also a tribute to him as what I shared is an extension of his eulogy which I delivered.

photo credit - C.K. Correia 2013. 
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I really believe this book can bring closure to my family especially my mother or anyone who has loved and lost loved ones. 

Each time I read it, it takes me to a different time and place, as I remember the good times which elicits a catharsis. A whole range of emotions takes over: joy, sadness, forgiveness, gratitude and acceptance.

I also mention all the things I was grateful for like my former jobs, my bosses, my talents, my relentless drive and my friends who have helped me through some of the toughest times in my life especially when I moved back home from Tobago. I am forever grateful to you...all of you...you know who you are...even the ones who are not physically in the same country/island.

Here endeth my blog for tonight...(I did it in 30 minutes or less, despite my fatigue!)

Until next episode, Happy June. Make it Count!

Peace & Love

THE REAL DEAL! Book #2

Hope your Wednesday was just great. I have been super busy....I just published my second book! I've waited for this day for soo long. It's been a long journey but the rewards are sweeter by the day.

I wish to thank all those people that helped with the process: my editor and designer Patricia, my beta readers Yohann and Marie-Ella and all my family, friends and colleagues who have supported me and provided the encouragement and inspiration throughout this 6-year journey. You made sure I did not give up and for this I am grateful.

Most of all my dear Dad who is no longer with me physically as I write this...you started this process and I thank you for the inspiration. I will love you forever and I know you are here with me in spirit.

I just ordered my sample copy and anxiously await before I make any more announcements!! It was A LOT of work, but the digital copy looks great and I can't wait to share with all of you.The countdown is ON!!!

I can't THANK YOU enough for joining me on my journey.

Feel free to message or email me at inspirationescape@gmail.com if you want to touch base or subscribe to my mailing list.

LOVE, luv, xo

Carolyn

Listening to the Messages

Today I met two very courageous people when I did a story in keeping with Lupus awareness month. The sun was shining and the weather was sweet and I learned so much as we danced to our own beat.

Reeanna and Sherwin I am in awe of you! You delight and inspire me! I feel like doing a

photo credit - C.K. Correia 2015
All rights reserved

song and dance in your honour! Wow!

It's a lesson that sometimes some of us cry over spilled milk way too long, when we should really be giving endless thanks and praise for our abundant blessings! 

Once we have the ability to wake up to a brand new day with life in our bodies and can look after ourselves, there's no time for weeping. 

Today also taught me that our journeys are interconnected and we have much to learn from each other. I can't wait to see how this story turns out.

I also learnt from Reeanna and my mom that I should listen to my body more. I must know my limits. I ignored the messages, that's why I was out of circulation this week for two days. 

Although I'm excited to create more wonderful things, I must know when it's time to pause and refuel. It's now signalling me to get some rest.

Tomorrow's another day full of possibilities, I can't wait to make it count!

Peace & Love

A Writer's Dream Come True

Today proves that hard work pays off and dreams do come true.

In reality my day did not start off the best. I don't usually get headaches, but for some reason

photo credit - lime.tt
Buccoo Goat and Crab Races 2013

I had a mind numbing throbbing sensation in my head for most of the day and last night. 

I thought I could be just suffering from stress and sleep deprivation or some kind of allergic reaction to something I consumed. I even missed my interview for a story this morning (the interviewee was also suffering from a migraine, so I guess everything happens for a reason).

But today was absolutely awesome for many reasons.

A couple Sundays ago, I interviewed my former work colleague and chef friend from Tobago via Skype in a series on entrepreneurship. 

The article was published in the newspaper today and the response was overwhelming. You can read it here: http://www.newsday.co.tt/features/0,211422.html

Before I could call her this morning she had already received a couple phone calls from persons wishing her well. 

I quickly ran out of the house to purchase my copy of the Newsday, even before having my morning tea. After finally getting my copy at the third shop I visited, I couldn't wait to tear open the newspaper.  My delight was so contagious that the shopkeeper started to smile as I opened to page 1 of the features section, while I  began to explain who it was! lol

When I returned home, I got a call from Curlyn telling me she received another phone call and email, this time from the Dean of a school in South Trinidad! He said that he was going to talk to the Food & Nutrition teacher, since every student of her class should have a copy of that article because it demonstrates that hard work pays off! Ohmy!

photo credit - Frederic Dubray © 2014. All rights reserved.

He said that next time he was in Tobago he wanted to taste her "sweet hand"! I couldn't believe my ears, I was super excited.

I got a text a little while later from Curlyn telling me that I wouldn't believe how many people were contacting her to congratulate her and invite her to cook for them, mainly in Trinidad. 

By the end of the day, a little while ago, I called her to find out how her day went and she told me that she received over 20 calls and emails from people (mostly strangers) all so happy for her and wanting to taste her food, especially her Antiguan dishes. She said one woman even told her she cried when she read the ending of the article!!! Ohhhmmmy 

My heart is bursting with gladness for my friend. This is the greatest reward a writer can receive. Although Curlyn thanked and congratulated me, I congratulated her for having such a determined spirit and a wonderful and fulfilling life. (I want to be just like her when I grow up!)

I am glad I got to know her and see the person inside. We met at a Career Fair in March 2013 shortly after moving to Tobago and became instant friends (like so many of my other Tobago peeps :) As my Dad's aunt would say (or so I was told growing up!) "God blessed the day I found you!" :-)

I always visit her when I'm on the island and she even came to the launch of my workshop last year when I moved back home. Every word in that article is authentic and I live vicariously through her life, each time I read it. I feel connected to her in spirit and she feels like family. 

I love you with all my heart Curlyn John and I wish you the very best life has to offer!

Until next time...

Peace & Love xo

Down For Maintenance

Today was my rest day from the book stuff. I realized I am pushing my body too hard. It's now crying out for sleep and rest. lol. After going to bed at 4 am, I got a few hours sleep and was off to the gym to test myself. 

After a full afternoon of errands, I realized I have no more to give mentally or physically.  I collapsed on my couch during the news after having the best cup of Colombian decaf freeze dried coffee. Woke up in the middle of The Voice and realized I did not miss a thing!

Yet I am here. It's what keeps me going. Much like oxygen. I need to write to exist. It is my reason for being.

I will rest, rejuvenate and recharge my batteries. I am doing an interview for another feature story tomorrow, so I have to be up early. 

For now, I pack it up and lay it down! Literally.

Until next time. 

Stay tuned.

Ciao~

Yesterday Is Gone, But Not Forgotten

Technology never ceases to amaze me. Within the past few days I've discovered so much, like how to share pdf files on social media without converting the file... 

I've learnt how my first book, Thinking out Loud sky-rocketed from 7,186,481th place (yes that's MILLION!) to 119, 950th place on the Amazon Best Sellers ranking in literally ONE day with minimal effort, NO additional reviews or WITHOUT spending a dime! 

I'm humbled and forever grateful! Let the blessings FLOW! (If any authors out there want to know how, please feel free to send me a message via the contact form on your right!) 

Tonight I continue my storytelling about my second book. I promise to keep it short! 

photo credit - Canoe Bay, Tobago
C. K.Correia 2013. All rights reserved

In my last blog, I spoke about my discovery of the COLD HARSH TRUTHS (still discovering) along this journey called life and how I learnt to cope with it. 

That's something I will never fully understand, but must accept in order to move forward positively and heal my heart and soul.

Although this memoir began in 2009, a lot of my book is about what I learnt on the sister-isle of Tobago when I worked there for a year and how it assisted my growth. 

I describe the feeling of liberation living totally on my own, waking up to cool fresh air, the sweet song (yes I said song!) of birds and being surrounded by beautiful eco-tourism and all the fruits and vegetables you can think of right in my own backyard. I also relived memories of my landlords and neighbours who made me feel like I never left home.

It was the perfect writer's paradise, yet I was out quite a lot and mostly wrote in the wee morning hours (like I do now). (That's me at the beach with my brother, the wind was pretty strong and I was having a bad hair day).

I talk about weekends of making (and figuring out how to make) roasted breadfruit, five finger (tropical fruit) sangria, barbadine (another divine island fruit) punch, fish broth and oil down (yummy local dishes) with friends, co-workers and strangers alike. I describe how those feelings awakened my spirit and renewed my peace that I craved for so long. The experience also strengthened my faith and made me a more resilient person. 

Most of all, I talk about the wonderful people I connected with almost instantly and how most of those friendships have endured to this day...2 years later. The events I attended gave me a greater appreciation for the culture of our twin-island republic and my sense of adventure was at full throttle as I learnt the new land and discovered new things.

Professionally, the experiences I had and the people I met both at work and in my personal life provided the impetus and courage to chart my destiny and hone my talents to rediscover my deeper purpose which led me to entrepreneurship (that I postponed for so long). 

My friends back home always remarked that I was having too much fun! And upon returning home they cannot get over how much I've grown :) My experience was that amazing...although fraught with minor, sporadic challenges, they pale in comparison to the overall journey.

The relationship with some of these friends also became deeper as they came to visit and we kept in touch via technology though waters separated us. Last night I turned on my wifi on the old BlackBerry and stumbled upon some old bbm chats that somehow survived! I was transported thru time to those days and months of bliss! 

I revelled in those moments and tucked away the memories until I need them again! Call me nostalgic, but I'm a sucker for that sorta thing. Despite this tough exterior, I am really a hopeless romantic (in a non-romantic writer way) lol

Today's lesson: Time is golden! Cherish it. Soak it in. LIVE FULLY IN THE MOMENT, because when it's gone, it cannot be recaptured #ThinkingOutLoud

Until next episode,

Peace & Love xo

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